I know exactly how you feel.Sitting on the shelf, on the sideboard behind me are the ashes of my last 3 dogs, Patch---Toby---Smokey, who had been my pals going back 40 years. I am as mad as hell at the 3 of them.They refused to go quietly in their sleep. OH No!! Not them. They put me through the misery of having to give the vet "The Nod", as they lay in my arms. So here I am.Feeling guilty for letting someone kill my best mates. I am 75 now and cannot bring myself to take on another dog, in case I pop my clogs and it gets to feeling like I do as I remember what are now, my 3 little caskets of ash, behind me.You have my sympathy at your loss. I do not know your age, but if you are young enough to give a dog 12 to 15 years of your life, do not heitate. GET ANOTHER.
OO?? ME?? Yer jokin officer.